Not so good at this...

It's been way to long since I had an update on here... so much has happened!  We officially got the house- moved in, and are all unpacked!! It's been a long time coming and we are so thrilled to be moved in and settled just before Baby D comes to join us.  There has been several dr appointments since my last update and things are going great! As of right now we are just waiting on him to decide when he wants to come on out. The nursery is just about done- I am finding it very difficult to decorate a room for someone that I don't yet know. And while I know it doesn't really matter since he is so little he won't notice... It does matter to me! I think it may be driving Mike a bit nuts that I keep delaying where to hang pictures and what not until we can meet him. It's the same thing as his name- what if he doesn't like what we decided before getting to know him! EEEEEEK!!! I can't believe that it will be any day!  We have another dr. appointment on Friday- I promise to try to update more at that time!

Tis the season!

I can't even begin to believe that the Holiday season is already here. Thanksgiving is already behind us and Christmas will be here before we know it... then Babies!!!! 

Thanksgiving was such a blast. It was so great to be able to travel and see everyone. Mike and I are a little upset we won't be able to see everyone over the Christmas/New Year's holidays but we both are just a little nervous about traveling that far into the pregnancy... And now for some updates on that! :)

The week after Thanksgiving I had a regular appointment and also some lab work scheduled for my glucose test. I went in not thinking too much about it, dealt with that darn needle prick, and went about my day. The Dr. let me know that they would call me if there was any negative results from the test, but otherwise they would see me in two more weeks. I definitely didn't think much of it...until my phone rang the next day and the Dr's office came up on the caller id. I definitely said some unpleasant words in my head as I answered the phone to be told that I had failed the first test. Really?? I exercise and eat pretty well. What the heck? Did all those Dunkin Donuts really screw me over Thanksgiving break???? I couldn't believe it! So- two days later I had to go back for the three hour glucose test. UGH. How do you tell a pregnant woman that she can't eat for nearly 12 hours?? It's absolute torture!!!  Well- I walked into the lab Friday morning and definitely gave the lab technician a heads up that I may be a bit grumpy come 11:00 or 12:00 and still not being allowed to eat. She was very nice and patient and even told me that I wasn't grumpy at all. 4 sticks with a needle and a couple of bruised elbow pits later- I was on my way to find the nearest place for lunch! The results came back a few days later-- of course after Mike hid everything that was remotely sweet in our house- and all was good! Apparently a lot of women fail the first test and have no issues after the second one comes in. Thanks goodness!!!

Now- a couple of weeks later- things seem to be going good... I am not sleeping a whole lot and pretty much uncomfortable most of the day- but things could be worse. I am so glad that I haven't had to deal with the nausea and sickness like some of my friends have. I am learning though- that I am definitely one of those women that does not really love being pregnant. I really see how tough it is on your body. I know I have several more weeks to go (at least I hope because we still have a ton to do!) but I will really be glad to meet the little guy and be able to get back to normal movement, sleeping, and what not!

More updates to come soon.... including on the house!! :)  yep yep! We are officially in ESCROW!!!!!!!!

It's been way too long....

My-oh-my! It's been way to long since I have updated this and I do apologize. To everyone else...and to me for not getting all my feelings and excitement out to share with everyone! There are days that I am still just get so tired at the end of the day. The growing bump is starting to get heavy! :)  And...realizing now I haven't even written about learning that it's a boy!! I have already spoken to most everyone and they know the story about the doctor's office and how we found out. It was so much fun! And I just can't wait to see Mike with his son. His face was full of so much excitement at the doctor's office the moment we found out- I just can't wait to see it again and again as we go through each moment with little Baby D. So...since many folks already know the finding out the sex story- I don't want to put you to sleep with another long story about that.... Let's get into another fun update-- shopping for Baby D!!!!!

With all the books and friends that have babies already- it is super overwhelming to start searching for what you need versus what you absolutely need versus what is nice to have and then what's a complete waste. There are so many lists and sites that will direct you in so many different directions that putting off shopping all together would be easy....but it's just to much fun to not start looking!

So after a long hunt on the major furniture- we finally (or should I say I finally) found one that we love, love, LOVE!!! It was kinda a last minute thing. I had found one online and in the store that I really liked only to learn a few days later that it was discontinued. On another fun filled day of house hunting- we happened to be near another Babies R Us that had the furniture out on display. I decided to just ask to see if they thought they would have any more available in the near future. I was thrilled to learn moments later that there was both a dresser and crib available. While I found Mike testing out the rocking chairs nearby- it only took about 2 seconds to decide and convince him that we just had to have it! We ended up buying it right away! Mike was able to pick up all the furniture over this past weekend-- which was an adventure in itself...  I will just say that I was happy to come home to see it all inside. It will be a while before we start setting everything up though. We have to figure out where we are going to live!!! It is still kinda up in the air on whether or not we will still be here in the condo or if we will be able to move to a bigger house in north county. Super exciting to think of all the changes coming up! Plan to have more updates soon! And.... will be sure to post pics and updats of our upcoming trip to D.C.  I am super excited for a much needed vacation with the hubs!!!

Energy is back!

Sorry for the delay on updates folks. We have been pretty busy!

I can say that I am no longer dealing with the extreme exhaustion. I was so proud of myself yesterday for leaving work, going to bootcamp, coming home to dust, sweep, and mop the floors and then still made a delish greek pizza for supper! That certainly wasn't a thought that would have ever crossed my mind a few weeks ago.  All I could manage was to stay awake on my drive home from work only to crawl right into bed at 5:30 to sleep till my alarm went off the next morning. It's nice to wake up in the morning and not be dog tired any more!! :)

Now that the tiredness is gone - and I am a bit further along...I am dealing with the expanding belly and strange emotions.. Let me tell you- it is weird. That's really all I can say about it. All my life I have been petite. I am fully aware of that.... I mean- all girls have their "fat" days and sometimes we are just bit picky or particular about the way we look, but to now wake up with all the energy that I have and kinda feel like a giant hippopotamus that just wants to hide in the shade and have soothing mud rubbed into her itchy, dry skin is odd. Mike has had to put up with only one breakdown so far. It really is tough for a guy to understand all the changes that a woman feels their body going through... and while I still don't really feel like a mom yet- I do expect all the changes and welcome them-- I just am still so shocked each time my body does something a little different than the norm of the last 29 years. While Mike has said he would be happy to gain 30 lbs over the next few months- I am freaking out about it. FREAKING OUT!!!!!! I think it started when someone at one of Mike's bootcamps mentioned a couple of weeks ago " I think you are starting to show a bit". I couldn't believe it! I was so offended. There is no way in the world I was showing....then about half an hour later a good friend said the same thing. It started to dawn on me that maybe it was true. I just really wasn't ready to accept it yet. "They just are seeing what they want to see" I kept telling myself. Well, the next day on our continual house hunt in north county, I was shocked to walk past a mirror at the specific angle that low and behold....I saw it! I saw a little bit of a bump. Oh. My. Goodness..... It's happening.  And then just this morning when I faced the fact that I couldn't have buttoned my work pants if I wanted to -compared to last week when it was strictly a little more comfortable to leave them hidden and undone under my blouse- whoa. Again... FREAKING OUT about the weight gain.  Enough of that.. We can post pics later when I feel more comfy in my skin.

So we heard the heartbeat last Thursday!!! That was pretty cool. I had another weird moment when I thought I would cry when I heard those beautiful thuds. Eyes started to water a bit, then I kinda laughed and they dried right up. Then I kept thinking to myself, "you're supposed to cry- just a happy cry, come on dork... just let a tear out..." So then they watered again- and as I was looking at Mike and noticed he just had a huge grin on his face,  I forgot about the need or obligation to shed a few tears. Then it was over and the dr. had turned off the little machine that helped us hear it. We were a little disappointed that we didn't get any pics taken that day- but at the time we were still on the high of having heard the heart beat that I don't think we really thought much of it. We head back to the dr. on September 22nd to get some snapshots and to find out if Baby D is going to be an strong, athletic boy like his daddy or a enthusiastic, sometimes crazy girl like her momma. Either way we have a growing list of names that we can't wait to try on for size. :)

And still FREAKING OUT about the weight gain thing....

Still so tired!

I really can't wait for the first trimester to be behind me. I am just so tired. All the time! As soon as my alarm goes off in the morning, I begin my countdown to when I can lay back down and close my eyes. Even if it's only for 10 more minutes. I have been really trying to keep up with my workouts, but it is nearlly impossible since just walking from my car to the front door drains every last bit of life out of me for the day. It makes me nervous that this feeling will never go away. I have so many friends tell me that this will pass. It's just part of the early months. I keep telling myself that they are all right... but I just don't see any end anywhere near. I did manage to make it to Mike's bootcamp class at Mission Bay this past Saturday. It was a good workout- but I feel like it really kicked my butt more than normal. I guess since I don't physically look any different- I mean I haven't gained weight and you certainly can't tell by looking at me that I have nearly 12 and 1/2 weeks behind me--I just don't understand why I can barely do pushups any more. I think I made it through one round of 10 and dropped to my knees at 7. UGH! I know I am stronger than that. And while I know running has never been one of my favorite things to do- I used to atleast be able to make it to the far tree and back and not be so completley out of breath that I have to sit down for a couple of minutes. I just have to keep telling myself it will pass. IT WILL PASS.... But for now....it's off to dreamland. Again. :)

Need more space

Successfully logged in to update! I am proud of myself for atleast making it here for a second visit.

Having just started sharing the news with family and friends about out little bundle of joy due to arrive in the middle of February- it has definilty brought up lots of talk for Mike and I about all sorts of things-to include eventually needing more space. We have certainly been wanting to move for a while-and this just kinda makes it seem like it is something we needed to look more into and set a more realistic timeline for ourselves.

Yesterday kick-started it all! Mike and I spent the day with an agent who took us all over north county to look at different options. It is so much fun but scary at the same time, especially since we need to consider school districts and communites close to parks.We took a look at a few condos that were right near Mike's studio- I know he would love being able to walk to work.... on the other side my commute will not be so terrific anymore. I do figure though- he has been driving about 30-40 minutes to and from work for the last 5 or so years while my drive has been about 5 miles. So close I have even been able to run home from work every now and then.

We also looked at a few places in new condo communities. They were so nice and fresh-but in a weird way it is a even scarier to think that we could actually own a brand new, never been lived in home. Are we that grown up enough?? We also had the chance to look at a few detached homes- and we found one that we really loved! As of now- we aren't jumping at anything and we know we have some time before we really need to start moving. But- we do know that these next 6 months will be gone before we know it! It's a little overwhelming at this time-but we are taking it all in stride. Hopefully we will have more news to report on the new home search soon! (With pics!)

Here goes nothin....Or something!

So- I did intend on trying to start a normal blog a while ago. And by normal- I mean regularly updating it- not normal in any sense of topic- and I am fully aware that I am not "normal" with some of my crazy thoughts and understandings of things in the world. Mike can certainly attest to disagreements that we have had based on the way I understand things- but...for anyone that has met my mother, you know where I get it from. And I don't think it's a bad thing- it just makes most things a little more wonderous and exciting for us! :) (Mom- I think I have asked similiar questions to "how does a bear know what area it is indiginous to"- Mike has a list of things he needs to call Dad about pretty much at any given time...)

Anyways- so while I intended on starting this blog before we went to Greece- and then after we got back from Greece- I obviously never really got around to it. Clearly -since none of you ever recieved it before. I don't know- maybe now that I started it and you guys all know about it- this will hold me more accountable to actually do it. That -and the fact that this super duper major life changing/family changing event is so exciting for us- we want to be able to share EVERYTHING with all of ya'll.

I know some of you may be wondering what do you mean life changing/family changing event- and most of you were aware of our plans.... Mike and I are PREGGS!  We are so freaking excited (and nervous, and scared, and happy, and confused....and more emotions that I can't seem to find the words for at this time)!!!! So- in an effort to keep you guys all updated on the fun stuff -knowing that I will likely have some hilarious freak out moments at times- I figured that this blog would be a really fun way to keep track of it all and who knows in 18 years- when the little alien thing that doesn't quite have legs or arms right now grows up to be a real person-maybe they will be interested in knowing what was going on in our minds over the years. And on the other side- they may be one of those that could care less. I know I had some tought arguments with my parents at 18  when there moments when I didn't want anything to do with them- but looking back now- I would have loved to know what my mom was thinking when she was pregnant. So .... here goes nothing.

I won't go to deep into the getting pregnant process- we all know how that happens. And- while I do want this blog to be personal- I am not going to get that personal. Don't think many of ya'll will mind. But I guess I can start with saying that Mike and I were a little worried that it would take a while for this miracle to happen to us. I have had a very long history of the not most normal cycle when it comes to womanly things- but turns out all of our initial worries didn't last that long. Suprisingly!!  When we got back from our amazing trip to Greece I wasn't so sure where I stood with the timing of things- and since we had been "not preventing" for a little while- we started taking stick tests about once a week. Let me tell you- The act of balancing in a semi-squat while lining up a tiny stick in hopes of it turning a certain color in a couple of minutes isn't the easiest thing. To add to it- my normal overly anxious stress levels. Awkward.  First Saturday goes by. Failed. Second Saturday goes by. Failed. On the following Wednesday- I had my monthly girls dinner with all my fab lady friends out here in San Diego. I gave them all the update that I was failing my tests... and while I was fully aware that it takes time for this to happen- internally I was starting to get really worried and freaked out. Cue the high anxiety, and the already sleepless nights, and the freak outs. The third Saturday came and I was a big fat failure again. The next work week started and I felt fine. No sickness or super sleepy feelings. By Tuesday at about 11:00am- I noticed that I hadn't eaten really anything all day. That's not normal for me at all. I really wasn't even that hungry at that time, but tried to get a little food down. I started to worry that I was maybe getting a bit sick. Wednesday -brought on kinda the same thing- not much of an appetite, but overall I felt pretty normal. Thursday was the kicker. I woke up and felt fine. Again- not much of an appetite. I was sitting at my desk like normal- stressing about who knows what for a client. I leaned back in effort to take a deep, relaxing breath and gather my thoughts and placed my hands across my stomach. Nothing out of the ordinary...except that as soon as I put my hands on my stomach I knew something was up! You know that feeling when you have been outside too long and forgot to reapply your sunscreen and you end up getting a really awful sunburn. The kind that you keep hoping will peel because it means it will eventually start to heal it never does and you end up just having to feel the heat radiate off of your skin for the next week. That is close to what it felt like. So- with my high anxiety and stress- of course I think "oh my god- I have a tumor or something, heat isn't good. My stomach has a fever". So there at work, I am touching every other part of my body to see if it is the same. Legs felt cool- arms we cool, neck felt fine. GOOGLE TIME! At least in my mini-freak out moment and the privacy of my own desk- I had the brief moment of clarity to check google (and WebMD, and ASKJEEVES, and Yahoo...and probably a few others) to see if there was any chance that a warm stomach can be a sign of pregnance and wouldn't you know- it has happened to others. I am not the only one! Well, it was only about 1:00 that day and I had a few more hours to go before I could go home. I got home and figured that since I was supposed to go indoor skydiving with my office the next day- it would probably be a good idea to know if I have a human growing in me or not, regardless if it was my scheduled Saturday test time or not. I got home- totally expecting to be wasting anoth $10 stick test. Between the normal balance act and continually checking my fever stomach at the same time I was kinda at a loss of emotion for a brief minute. Then that double line popped up. I had to rub by eyes to double check that I wasn't seeing things. (Then wash my hands and my face to look again). OH. MY. GOODNESS. WHOA. Little bit of tears, then a little bit of laughter. Then some more tears. I managed to text Mike to see what time he would be home. I couldn't wait to share this with him. Then a bit more tears and laughter. Mike wasn't going to be home for a few more hours, so I had some time to try to plan something fun. Off to Target I went. I picked up a few things- prenatals, a nice fathers day card (lucky for me it was about 2 weeks away), some sparkling grape juice, and the standard "What to Expect" book. I made it home, wrapped up the book with the 2 tests taped to it- yeah... I took a second test to double check I didn't mess up somehow...and I put it all on the bed in our room.  When he made it home I told him he had time to shower before supper would be fixed and ready to eat. As he walked in and fussed at me for getting him another unnecessary treat- I snuck in behind him with two glasses of the grape juice in our champagne flutes. I walked in at the perfect time to see him reading the fathers day card and trying to piece together what exactly it meant. It was great. His face and smile were the definition of happiness and excitement. We had a really special night talking about everything that came to mind knowing that in a few short months we would not be alone anymore.

Flash forward a couple of weeks to Father's day. We knew it was super early to share things with friends-but we were so excited that we wanted to atleast tell our family. I took a little time to make a huge poster. One of them said "Happy Father's Day" and another that simply said "GRAND!!".  We had some close friends take a picture of Mike and I holding the posters and were able to text them to our parents on Father's day. The reactions were priceless! I was lucky enough to have my sister and her fiance' be there when my Dad received the text and they were even able to video it to catch his reaction! She sent the video to us and I still watch it every now and then and it makes me just grin ear to ear to see both his and my mom's reaction. The conversation with Mike's parents after he sent the picture was equally amazing. We are so excited to have been able to share this great news with all of them so soon after we found out ourselves. 

It's been a few more weeks since then- and we are so excited to tell everyone else. We just had our first appointment today and got the all clear-everything looks good- OK from Dr. Gunnarson. We are so excited to start sharing the news with all of our friends. It is going to be a fun few days! The appointment today went really well. I am currently about 10 and a half weeks- with a due date of Feb 17th. This means that I will have plenty of time to get back in shape before my beautiful sister's wedding in mid-May. I am also kinda lucky that my hubs is a fantastic trainer and will for sure help me keep my goal of getting back into shape fast. We had our first ultra sound today which was so exciting! I don't really know what I expected- but I did have a mini-freak out that lasted for about 2 seconds.  Again- I don't know what I expected it to look like, but I knew to look for a heartbeat. For whatever reason- I though the heartbeat would look like a bright white, fast flash of light that would flicker on the screen. When the dr. started the u/s- I didn't see that bright white flicker and for just a moment I was absolutley terrified. I was so scared that there was nothing to be seen- then she pointed to the screen and I was clearly able to make out the pulsing movement on the screen. Anxiety levels dropped- and immediatley were replaced with such a feeling of happiness and excitement. I think the change of emotions was so fast that Mike didn't even notice I was in complete panic for 2 seconds. It was that fast. Oh wow. The little hearbeat, and then to see it squirming around like a little breakdancer!! Speechless! Wow! WOW!! I can't believe it! It's just so magical. We did get some pics and while I still kinda don't know what I am looking at- I do at the same time. It's ours. And while it doesn't look like much yet-I know it will be the greatest thing I have ever seen come February.