Need more space

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Having just started sharing the news with family and friends about out little bundle of joy due to arrive in the middle of February- it has definilty brought up lots of talk for Mike and I about all sorts of things-to include eventually needing more space. We have certainly been wanting to move for a while-and this just kinda makes it seem like it is something we needed to look more into and set a more realistic timeline for ourselves.

Yesterday kick-started it all! Mike and I spent the day with an agent who took us all over north county to look at different options. It is so much fun but scary at the same time, especially since we need to consider school districts and communites close to parks.We took a look at a few condos that were right near Mike's studio- I know he would love being able to walk to work.... on the other side my commute will not be so terrific anymore. I do figure though- he has been driving about 30-40 minutes to and from work for the last 5 or so years while my drive has been about 5 miles. So close I have even been able to run home from work every now and then.

We also looked at a few places in new condo communities. They were so nice and fresh-but in a weird way it is a even scarier to think that we could actually own a brand new, never been lived in home. Are we that grown up enough?? We also had the chance to look at a few detached homes- and we found one that we really loved! As of now- we aren't jumping at anything and we know we have some time before we really need to start moving. But- we do know that these next 6 months will be gone before we know it! It's a little overwhelming at this time-but we are taking it all in stride. Hopefully we will have more news to report on the new home search soon! (With pics!)

Here goes nothin....Or something!

So- I did intend on trying to start a normal blog a while ago. And by normal- I mean regularly updating it- not normal in any sense of topic- and I am fully aware that I am not "normal" with some of my crazy thoughts and understandings of things in the world. Mike can certainly attest to disagreements that we have had based on the way I understand things- but...for anyone that has met my mother, you know where I get it from. And I don't think it's a bad thing- it just makes most things a little more wonderous and exciting for us! :) (Mom- I think I have asked similiar questions to "how does a bear know what area it is indiginous to"- Mike has a list of things he needs to call Dad about pretty much at any given time...)

Anyways- so while I intended on starting this blog before we went to Greece- and then after we got back from Greece- I obviously never really got around to it. Clearly -since none of you ever recieved it before. I don't know- maybe now that I started it and you guys all know about it- this will hold me more accountable to actually do it. That -and the fact that this super duper major life changing/family changing event is so exciting for us- we want to be able to share EVERYTHING with all of ya'll.

I know some of you may be wondering what do you mean life changing/family changing event- and most of you were aware of our plans.... Mike and I are PREGGS!  We are so freaking excited (and nervous, and scared, and happy, and confused....and more emotions that I can't seem to find the words for at this time)!!!! So- in an effort to keep you guys all updated on the fun stuff -knowing that I will likely have some hilarious freak out moments at times- I figured that this blog would be a really fun way to keep track of it all and who knows in 18 years- when the little alien thing that doesn't quite have legs or arms right now grows up to be a real person-maybe they will be interested in knowing what was going on in our minds over the years. And on the other side- they may be one of those that could care less. I know I had some tought arguments with my parents at 18  when there moments when I didn't want anything to do with them- but looking back now- I would have loved to know what my mom was thinking when she was pregnant. So .... here goes nothing.

I won't go to deep into the getting pregnant process- we all know how that happens. And- while I do want this blog to be personal- I am not going to get that personal. Don't think many of ya'll will mind. But I guess I can start with saying that Mike and I were a little worried that it would take a while for this miracle to happen to us. I have had a very long history of the not most normal cycle when it comes to womanly things- but turns out all of our initial worries didn't last that long. Suprisingly!!  When we got back from our amazing trip to Greece I wasn't so sure where I stood with the timing of things- and since we had been "not preventing" for a little while- we started taking stick tests about once a week. Let me tell you- The act of balancing in a semi-squat while lining up a tiny stick in hopes of it turning a certain color in a couple of minutes isn't the easiest thing. To add to it- my normal overly anxious stress levels. Awkward.  First Saturday goes by. Failed. Second Saturday goes by. Failed. On the following Wednesday- I had my monthly girls dinner with all my fab lady friends out here in San Diego. I gave them all the update that I was failing my tests... and while I was fully aware that it takes time for this to happen- internally I was starting to get really worried and freaked out. Cue the high anxiety, and the already sleepless nights, and the freak outs. The third Saturday came and I was a big fat failure again. The next work week started and I felt fine. No sickness or super sleepy feelings. By Tuesday at about 11:00am- I noticed that I hadn't eaten really anything all day. That's not normal for me at all. I really wasn't even that hungry at that time, but tried to get a little food down. I started to worry that I was maybe getting a bit sick. Wednesday -brought on kinda the same thing- not much of an appetite, but overall I felt pretty normal. Thursday was the kicker. I woke up and felt fine. Again- not much of an appetite. I was sitting at my desk like normal- stressing about who knows what for a client. I leaned back in effort to take a deep, relaxing breath and gather my thoughts and placed my hands across my stomach. Nothing out of the ordinary...except that as soon as I put my hands on my stomach I knew something was up! You know that feeling when you have been outside too long and forgot to reapply your sunscreen and you end up getting a really awful sunburn. The kind that you keep hoping will peel because it means it will eventually start to heal it never does and you end up just having to feel the heat radiate off of your skin for the next week. That is close to what it felt like. So- with my high anxiety and stress- of course I think "oh my god- I have a tumor or something, heat isn't good. My stomach has a fever". So there at work, I am touching every other part of my body to see if it is the same. Legs felt cool- arms we cool, neck felt fine. GOOGLE TIME! At least in my mini-freak out moment and the privacy of my own desk- I had the brief moment of clarity to check google (and WebMD, and ASKJEEVES, and Yahoo...and probably a few others) to see if there was any chance that a warm stomach can be a sign of pregnance and wouldn't you know- it has happened to others. I am not the only one! Well, it was only about 1:00 that day and I had a few more hours to go before I could go home. I got home and figured that since I was supposed to go indoor skydiving with my office the next day- it would probably be a good idea to know if I have a human growing in me or not, regardless if it was my scheduled Saturday test time or not. I got home- totally expecting to be wasting anoth $10 stick test. Between the normal balance act and continually checking my fever stomach at the same time I was kinda at a loss of emotion for a brief minute. Then that double line popped up. I had to rub by eyes to double check that I wasn't seeing things. (Then wash my hands and my face to look again). OH. MY. GOODNESS. WHOA. Little bit of tears, then a little bit of laughter. Then some more tears. I managed to text Mike to see what time he would be home. I couldn't wait to share this with him. Then a bit more tears and laughter. Mike wasn't going to be home for a few more hours, so I had some time to try to plan something fun. Off to Target I went. I picked up a few things- prenatals, a nice fathers day card (lucky for me it was about 2 weeks away), some sparkling grape juice, and the standard "What to Expect" book. I made it home, wrapped up the book with the 2 tests taped to it- yeah... I took a second test to double check I didn't mess up somehow...and I put it all on the bed in our room.  When he made it home I told him he had time to shower before supper would be fixed and ready to eat. As he walked in and fussed at me for getting him another unnecessary treat- I snuck in behind him with two glasses of the grape juice in our champagne flutes. I walked in at the perfect time to see him reading the fathers day card and trying to piece together what exactly it meant. It was great. His face and smile were the definition of happiness and excitement. We had a really special night talking about everything that came to mind knowing that in a few short months we would not be alone anymore.

Flash forward a couple of weeks to Father's day. We knew it was super early to share things with friends-but we were so excited that we wanted to atleast tell our family. I took a little time to make a huge poster. One of them said "Happy Father's Day" and another that simply said "GRAND!!".  We had some close friends take a picture of Mike and I holding the posters and were able to text them to our parents on Father's day. The reactions were priceless! I was lucky enough to have my sister and her fiance' be there when my Dad received the text and they were even able to video it to catch his reaction! She sent the video to us and I still watch it every now and then and it makes me just grin ear to ear to see both his and my mom's reaction. The conversation with Mike's parents after he sent the picture was equally amazing. We are so excited to have been able to share this great news with all of them so soon after we found out ourselves. 

It's been a few more weeks since then- and we are so excited to tell everyone else. We just had our first appointment today and got the all clear-everything looks good- OK from Dr. Gunnarson. We are so excited to start sharing the news with all of our friends. It is going to be a fun few days! The appointment today went really well. I am currently about 10 and a half weeks- with a due date of Feb 17th. This means that I will have plenty of time to get back in shape before my beautiful sister's wedding in mid-May. I am also kinda lucky that my hubs is a fantastic trainer and will for sure help me keep my goal of getting back into shape fast. We had our first ultra sound today which was so exciting! I don't really know what I expected- but I did have a mini-freak out that lasted for about 2 seconds.  Again- I don't know what I expected it to look like, but I knew to look for a heartbeat. For whatever reason- I though the heartbeat would look like a bright white, fast flash of light that would flicker on the screen. When the dr. started the u/s- I didn't see that bright white flicker and for just a moment I was absolutley terrified. I was so scared that there was nothing to be seen- then she pointed to the screen and I was clearly able to make out the pulsing movement on the screen. Anxiety levels dropped- and immediatley were replaced with such a feeling of happiness and excitement. I think the change of emotions was so fast that Mike didn't even notice I was in complete panic for 2 seconds. It was that fast. Oh wow. The little hearbeat, and then to see it squirming around like a little breakdancer!! Speechless! Wow! WOW!! I can't believe it! It's just so magical. We did get some pics and while I still kinda don't know what I am looking at- I do at the same time. It's ours. And while it doesn't look like much yet-I know it will be the greatest thing I have ever seen come February.